Tuesday, 21 April 2020

Lost in time


Sometimes time comes rushing in
A mountain river of silver white
Churning through you,
Rolling your pebbles.
Washing you clean
Of yourself.
There are days when it's a thundering giant.
Crushing skyscrapers,
Landing an iron fist on your throat
Tying your bowels in a knot.
There are those dark days
When time bleeds out of you slowly
Leaving scars that –
Oh yeah… -
Only time can heal.
And just some times
Are a butterfly sitting on your shoulder,
Raising and lowering its paper-thin wings.
While a prayer-song plays on your lips.
"Please don't go…
Tarry a while".
I'm counting time
Like a hundred-worth bills
That nobody could ever pay me back.
The currency that we pay with
For everything else.
Except when it's an endless cold ocean
And no shore can be seen.
If only there were lighthouses
On the shores of time.
Forever changing
Faster than you can blink,
The silk thread,
The thundering storm.
A treasure.


Wednesday, 1 January 2020

Her memory of light


The day she stood
At the mouth of a well
And wondered if and why
She'd ever agree
To go in
Deep.

That day,
She walked away,
She didn't dare,
This
First
Time.

She peered fearfully
Into the mouth of a cave.
The slope was steep,
The air was dark,
The smell was damp.
She wished
She had dared
Again
Now.  

One day she tripped and fell
Deep underground,
A place without air flow,
Muffling sounds,
Her own
Deep
Personal
Hell.

Walking through tunnels,
Huddling herself close,
She held onto a memory
Roaring
Bright
Scent
Of light.

For the longest time
She searched down below
For a hint of a door,
Into the normal
Bright
Old
World.

The memory of light
Had all but faded
In her mind, in the
Rayless
World
Below.

Until one evening
She stumbled out
Onto a vast open field, into a
Bright
Bright
Night.

Millions of shades
Resounding
Vibrant din
That will never
Fade
To her
Again.






Wednesday, 30 October 2019

The Keeper Tree

It was about two hours after the colonists realized that the air on the new planet was very similar to that on their native Earth, and removed their masks, that the groups wandered in different directions. According to the reports, there were no predators here, no bacteria and no intelligent life. The results for the virus test were not back yet, but nobody seemed to care. They've had enough of the stale air and tasteless food, and if they were in danger, they could not go back to Earth, anyway. This was a one-way journey.  
-          On this planet, we are born into the air. I know you won't understand… but listen anyway, OK?  
Steve was lying down under a giant tree, staring at its leaves in utter disbelief. The tree was talking to him, inside his head, in a loud and sonourous voice. For the avoidance of doubt, it began by introducing itself. The images it sent added up to words, and Steve had no idea how it happened. Having gotten some control over his shaking limbs and chattering teeth, Steve agreed to listen and not to call anyone else just yet. The tree clearly meant no harm. His panic manifested in such weakness that he had to lie down. His knees were still occasionally bumping into each other. He felt cold and clammy, even though it was warm enough to sweat. Around him, light blue and lilac balloons were flying, colliding and turning about, with shadows shimmering inside them, and he could swear he heard them laughing, but only inside his head. "The air here made me lose it", - he thought. But then the tree carried on speaking.  
-          I remember the day I came into being. Lighter than air, we fly around, absorbing the sunlight, free of all worry and care. You would call it photosynthesis… we don't need anything. Only air… We fly and grow in pure happiness of being alive… then slowly we get heavier, and begin to sink down to the ground. That means it's time to choose the spot where we will live for the rest of our lives, as trees. But still we have some time before we become too heavy to fly. After I found this spot, I landed here, and when my roots grew, I got a mind that could think and speak, from the ground. The ground is our mother.
Steve chocked on his question, and pronounced it instead in his mind.
"Do you hear me like this?"
-          Of course, replied the tree.
"What do you mean when you say that the ground is your mother?"
-          That is exactly what I mean. We come from the ground… she feeds us, loves us and takes care of us. We are her… just that she cannot see or communicate, so we do that for her. Her name is Orola. You should treat her with respect.
"Whom do you communicate with? Until now, there were no humans here."
-          Everything you see can communicate. But we, the trees, are the ones who help the planet. She sent me to speak to you. Our roots are so deep, they connect all living beings into one body. Without us, Orola is deaf and mute. You brought fire, and our planet is afraid, so afraid… don't you feel her?
Steve could swear he felt a deep rumble under his back, where it was pressed into the ground. Like a very distant thunderstorm.
" I do" – the thought came. "I am afraid, too. Humans are not exactly some lovely bunnies…"
His head was spinning form the effort. Being the colony's meteorologist, he had no control over what happened. Yet, the captain was not likely to listen to any trees. He was ready to mine, build, and burn as necessary. It was absolutely clear to Steve, that should humans stay on this planet, it would be destroyed much faster than the Earth was. It was more sensitive… and intelligent. Just as Stanislav Lem predicted in "Solaris". It was true… except this planet was not an ocean. Somehow, the colonists needed to learn to be gentle, in a world of a gentle-speaking trees, and their baby balloons, and take only what the planet gave willingly.
"What would make you … and your mother… feel safe?"
-          Call the humans here, and I will speak to them. If they cannot live by our rules, they will have to leave. Fire has to be limited and contained. No being shall ever be harmed.
"We cannot leave. Our planet will not take us back… there is nowhere to go. And we eat… meat. Bodies of animals. Understand?"
-          Call them. Now.
The ground shook again, this time harder.
Moments later, Steve was running, tripping up over himself, towards the seashore.
As he was approaching one of the groups, a scream reached his ears. A woman was screaming, hollering, shrieking so loudly, that the intelligent ground of Orola gave a powerful lurch, and Steve ended up flat on his belly. Wiping his bloodied nose on his sleeve, he carried on running, until he reached the screaming woman. It looked like she tried cutting one of the crawling vines, and now it was holding her by the leg, pulling her away from the group. The ground shook again, by now most of the colonists were sitting down, not trusting the ground anymore. Steve fell on his knees, out of breath, in front of the woman.
"Stop! Stop!" – he screamed to the vine in his mind. "Let go!"
The vine released its grasp and swung itself again over a tree.
-          Wait now. Full stop. There is something you have to learn before you take even one more step over here.
The tree breathed a sigh of relief in his mind. The humans walked slowly, one by one, watching their step, careful and aware, towards the Keeper Tree, as the ground calmed down gradually, with low-grade tremors.